Seriously? Just… really?
Being interested in the case is perfectly fine. Being interested in why the fuck James Holmes did it is fine too.
Wanting him in your bed and swooning over mugshots of him is not OK in the slightest. If you were there, he wouldn’t have stopped killing people, he wouldn’t have put his guns down and ridden off in to the sunset with you. No. He’d have gassed you and then probably shot you.
He will never be yours, he will never be released. He will never meet you/know you/care about you. He is a mass murderer. And you’re fucked in the head for thinking otherwise.